...at my corner

There are insects everywhere.
Wanting attention; wanting comfort.
Lost souls; fragile as glass.
Hope is pleaded upon; darkness seeps in.
Teardrops as though there's no tomorrow.
Loved ones are getting blurred out of sight.
On knees; waiting for something; change is feared.
Cold winds; everything is disappearing.
Waiting; wanting affection; hatred blinds naive eyes.
Whispers from one to another; who are you...
Monsters unleash; innocence is devoured.
Guilt creeps in; tears fall again.
Insanity dominates; imagination is cut off.
Waiting for someone; are you there...
Loss of patience; surrendering cowardly.
Faith in the non existence; pain piercing through agony.
Delusional thoughts take over; wandering mindlessly.
Needing direction; engraved mockery.
Thinking; progression is slowly fading.
Questions asked; where are you...
Silence as deadly as execution; wanting to be nearer.
Help is begged upon; tired eyes pleading for mercy.
Torture arises; leave me alone...
Vengeance as one's only solution; hysterical laughter.
Evil pleasure as one's indulgence; go away...
Disgusting surroundings; eyes remain unseen.
Lack of knowledge; addicting dependence finds it's way.
Peace is deprived; eyes close; wishing to wake up unknown.

Drag and Break the Chain

The past three day i have been trying to release myself from my negative thought.It is giving me the burden where i became too cautious of what is going on around me and usually this things polluted my mind ,how i think,how i judge thing...they just keep bring me down and i cant control it

so i have been releasing my soul from this torment (hhehe..yea right)try to see from others point of view,attempt to find way to convince myself that "these actually simple than i what i imagine" gahhhh..and give a treat to myself for that drive .

for that i have been traveling with buses...let them bring me to anywhere i can go

..stop by and walk...window shopping..buy some stuff to cheer me up

...avoid the salesman(my top weaknesses.i just cant stand and refuse them request ngeeeekkkk)try to find my way back home(i have lost my way for a while)food hunting.....went to book store and sit there reading...search for the new literature component

and found a lot of interesting reading materials wwoooooo...i want this one but cannot

...because i didn't have money to buy them..

So yesterday traveling end with me watching Sucker Punch

..i can feel that this travel to nowhere actually not pointless at all..last night movie fill me with a new drive, new motivation and it is a good decision for me to start this small and not so adventurous journey of mine...

here is some quotation from the movie:

Wiseman: If you don't stand for something, you'll fall for anything.

Wiseman: Don't ever write a check with your mouth you can't cash with your ass. Oh, and one more thing... don't wake the mother.

Wiseman: For those who fight for it, life has a flavor the sheltered will never know

Sweet Pea: You can deny angels exist, Convince ourselves they can't be real. But they show up anyway, at strange places and at strange times. They can speak through any character we can imagine. They'll shout through demons if they have to. Daring us, challenging us to fight.

Sweet Pea: Who Honors those we love for the very life we live? Who sends monsters to kill us... and at the same time sings that we'll never die? Who teaches us what's real... and how to laugh at lies? Who decides why we live and what we'll die to defend? Who chains us... and who holds the key that can set us free? IT'S YOU. You have all the weapons you need. Now fight!


hehe..i need Sucker Punch you know what i mean..right?No??umm ya nevermind

right down the valley of gloomy

OMG im felt so bored already sitting in the house nothing to do.

I just finish all my course subject recently so this semester i wont be having any lecture session.

I really need to do something though..

i need to go out to a place that does not consume me a lot of movement. im not good with things that requires me to spends and use up all my energy..walk2 then can la..well writing on this blog and practice some writing skills is one way of releasing myself from boredom too

I just write what i think i want to write so yeah..you all need to swallow this hahaha

A new and hopefully an up to date blog -_-

well actually i really like the idea 'to have a blog' and of course i like to share thought and ideas and experiences as well..my previous blog was the result of a person who tired of doing nothing and filled with boredom..yeah that is how i decide to create those blog..hehe..now im setting up a new determination to create this one hehe..hey..everybody need a reason to do something ritee??NO??umm okay..then its just me then huhu..