The past three day i have been trying to release myself from my negative thought.It is giving me the burden where i became too cautious of what is going on around me and usually this things polluted my mind
,how i think,how i judge thing...they just keep bring me down and i cant control it 
so i have been releasing my soul from this torment
(hhehe..yea right)try to see from others point of view,attempt to find way to convince myself that "these actually simple than i what i imagine" gahhhh..and give a treat to myself for that drive 
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for that i have been traveling with buses...let them bring me to anywhere i can go
..stop by and walk...window shopping..buy some stuff to cheer me up
...avoid the salesman(my top weaknesses.i just cant stand and refuse them request ngeeeekkkk)try to find my way back home(i have lost my way for a while)food hunting.....went to book store and sit there reading...search for the new literature component
and found a lot of interesting reading materials wwoooooo...i want this one but cannot
...because i didn't have money to buy them..
So yesterday traveling end with me watching Sucker Punch
..i can feel that this travel to nowhere actually not pointless at all..last night movie fill me with a new drive, new motivation and it is a good decision for me to start this small and not so adventurous journey of mine...
here is some quotation from the movie:
Wiseman: If you don't stand for something, you'll fall for anything.
Wiseman: Don't ever write a check with your mouth you can't cash with your ass. Oh, and one more thing... don't wake the mother.
Wiseman: For those who fight for it, life has a flavor the sheltered will never know
Sweet Pea: You can deny angels exist, Convince ourselves they can't be real. But they show up anyway, at strange places and at strange times. They can speak through any character we can imagine. They'll shout through demons if they have to. Daring us, challenging us to fight.
hehe..i need Sucker Punch you know what i mean..right?No??umm ya nevermind
